Love and Lust – November 21st, 2000

I’ve been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. Mainly about love. And I’m feeling really confused, so I talked to some of my friends at school. In a round about way because I don’t want them to know about anything I’ve been doing, I don’t want them to know that I’m sleeping with Shane. […]

My So Called “Birthday Party” – November 19th, 2000

Woke up yesterday, wishing I could relive the whole of Friday and not have to do whatever I have planned for my birthday. But here I am. Had an email from that guy Damian at the bus stop. He’s so weird. He’s been writing to me about his school life and all kinds of strange […]

The Best Birthday Present – November 17th, 2000

Today, after my parents left, I shot straight out of bed, took the pain killers mum gave me earlier, and ran myself a bath. Baths are the best way to start the day. I soaked in there for about 40 minutes until the water started to go a little cold. We have coconut body wash […]

Pulling a Sickie – November 17th, 2000

This morning so far is going perfectly. I didn’t even have to really lie because I DID have a headache from lack of sleep from the past 2 days. I woke my mum up at about 5:30am and begged her for some pain killers. Strong ones. Groggily, she got up and gave me some of […]

Wishing You Were Someone Else – November 17th, 2000

It’s my birthday in a few days, and I’m not going to get to be with the people that I really want to celebrate with. I have Chels coming over to stay the night tomorrow, and I think my sister has her friend over too. My parents are going to get a cake, fizzy drink, […]

The Grapevine – November 16th, 2000

Today is up there with one of the worst days I’ve ever had at school. Firstly, last night my parents were awake until past midnight drinking with their friends. They are doing the same now. I woke up with an instant headache from being so tired. I don’t have ear plugs so had to sleep […]

The Virginity Contract – November 15th, 2000

I haven’t written for a few days. This is partly because I’ve just been sleeping. For the past 3 days all I’ve heard from Chels is all about what happened in the weekend. She’s always looking at me like she’s trying to figure me out, get to the root of my meaning. After a day […]

I Think I Got Away With It – November 13, 2000

Finally I’m back from school and I can finish what I was writing yesterday. After everyone found out about me and Shane, we went back and joined the party, without having to hide it from everyone. What was annoying though, was that everybody wanted to know EVERYTHING about EVERTYHING. When did it happen. Had we […]

Busted – November 12th, 2000

It’s 9pm as I write this because I’ve been sleeping for the past 4 hours. Last night was IN-SANE. Even for me the risk that I took was big. My parents had plans to go out to town last night, and have some drinks with their friends. My sister was off to her friends house, […]

Okay,so I lied? – November 11th, 2000

Call me mean, a bad friend, a liar, but I don’t care. I called Chels and told her I’m not feeling great so she won’t come over. I was just overcome with this feeling like I should go out tonight and see Shane. I know it was a mean thing to do to her, but […]