Coming Down Crashing – November 27th, 2000

My head hurts. School today was interesting. Aside from the fact that I feel like complete shit, I had to come back to the crazy mess that I’d set up for myself last Friday. I checked my email this morning and I had 7 emails from my ‘friends’ from school, about what happened the other […]

Love and Lust – November 21st, 2000

I’ve been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. Mainly about love. And I’m feeling really confused, so I talked to some of my friends at school. In a round about way because I don’t want them to know about anything I’ve been doing, I don’t want them to know that I’m sleeping with Shane. […]

The Virginity Contract – November 15th, 2000

I haven’t written for a few days. This is partly because I’ve just been sleeping. For the past 3 days all I’ve heard from Chels is all about what happened in the weekend. She’s always looking at me like she’s trying to figure me out, get to the root of my meaning. After a day […]

I Think I Got Away With It – November 13, 2000

Finally I’m back from school and I can finish what I was writing yesterday. After everyone found out about me and Shane, we went back and joined the party, without having to hide it from everyone. What was annoying though, was that everybody wanted to know EVERYTHING about EVERTYHING. When did it happen. Had we […]

Busted – November 12th, 2000

It’s 9pm as I write this because I’ve been sleeping for the past 4 hours. Last night was IN-SANE. Even for me the risk that I took was big. My parents had plans to go out to town last night, and have some drinks with their friends. My sister was off to her friends house, […]

Sex: Should I/Shouldn’t I – November 8th, 2000

I’ve been feeling like (and I can’t believe I’m writing this), maybe that I’m ready to have sex. I know I’m only almost 14, but I feel like I’m a lot different to other girls. I’ve been through so much more than other girls my age that I know, and I feel like I have […]

Grounded – November 4th, 2000

So, I am in BIG trouble and now I’m grounded. Not even for going out last night (I got home at 3am), but because I smart-mouthed my mum in the kitchen this morning.  And all because I didn’t say thanks to her for giving me $5 for my lunch. I was still half asleep! She […]

I Kissed a Girl at a Party – November 3rd, 2000

Yes, it’s true. I haven’t written in about a week. Is that such a crime? I’m sure you don’t feel that abandoned, book. Last weekend I went to a party at James’ house while his mum was in Samoa. It was the best party I’ve ever been to in my life. James ended up kissing […]

The Beauty of Hindsight – October 19th, 2000

It’s amazing how things change just like that. I haven’t written anything in here for almost 2 weeks… I’ve just had a lot of thinking to catch up on. The thing is, breaking up with George was no surprise, all along I could tell that we were truly not working out, but I loved him […]

Cheated – October 4th, 2000

Last night I went out. Mum and dad were having some beers/wines so I had to wait until 11pm until they were asleep. I spent most of the night chatting on ICQ with some people I’ve never met. Lately the people I’ve never met are better to talk to than my actual friends. Anyway, after […]