Coming Down Crashing – November 27th, 2000

My head hurts. School today was interesting. Aside from the fact that I feel like complete shit, I had to come back to the crazy mess that I’d set up for myself last Friday. I checked my email this morning and I had 7 emails from my ‘friends’ from school, about what happened the other […]

The Grapevine – November 16th, 2000

Today is up there with one of the worst days I’ve ever had at school. Firstly, last night my parents were awake until past midnight drinking with their friends. They are doing the same now. I woke up with an instant headache from being so tired. I don’t have ear plugs so had to sleep […]

The Virginity Contract – November 15th, 2000

I haven’t written for a few days. This is partly because I’ve just been sleeping. For the past 3 days all I’ve heard from Chels is all about what happened in the weekend. She’s always looking at me like she’s trying to figure me out, get to the root of my meaning. After a day […]

I Think I Got Away With It – November 13, 2000

Finally I’m back from school and I can finish what I was writing yesterday. After everyone found out about me and Shane, we went back and joined the party, without having to hide it from everyone. What was annoying though, was that everybody wanted to know EVERYTHING about EVERTYHING. When did it happen. Had we […]

I Lost Something, I Found Something – November 11th, 2000

I’m going to write this really quickly because Chels is coming over to stay the night soon. I’m also going to have to hide this somewhere because I can’t believe what I’m about to write. Last night something crazy happened. Shane’s parents were away in a hotel. Shane says they are going to get divorced […]

A Fight At The Skate Park – November 9th, 2000

Something really, really bad has just happened. I just got a phone call from James. Apparently him and Shane were down at the skate park (they go there a lot together. They call it ‘bro time’, because they are idiots). Well, Jason was there. James told me that they overheard Jason talking about me to […]

School Yard Roughhousing – November 9th, 2000

At school today we were all sitting around gossiping. There’s so many stupid bitches at our school, I’m surprised we don’t gossip more than we do. The gossiping happened because there are 2 cousins that are in my class together. They call themselves ‘sisters’ because they live in the same house (one of them was […]

Sex: Should I/Shouldn’t I – November 8th, 2000

I’ve been feeling like (and I can’t believe I’m writing this), maybe that I’m ready to have sex. I know I’m only almost 14, but I feel like I’m a lot different to other girls. I’ve been through so much more than other girls my age that I know, and I feel like I have […]

Reflections and Second-Guessing – November 6th, 2000

I’ve done, seen and been a lot of things in the last while that I haven’t dared write in this little book for fear of someone reading it. But I’ve come a long way. I’m not saying that I will never go back to the way I was before, and I’m not saying that I’m […]

Killing Time With Lolita – November 4th, 2000

11:20pm Tonight was a horrible night. I’m grounded so I was on ICQ, when Jeff came online. It’s been a while since I’ve seen or spoken to Jeff.  He messaged me, and he was talking all weird. He said he came on to delete me from his ICQ list, and said “Forget ever knowing me”. […]