Coming Down Crashing – November 27th, 2000

My head hurts. School today was interesting. Aside from the fact that I feel like complete shit, I had to come back to the crazy mess that I’d set up for myself last Friday. I checked my email this morning and I had 7 emails from my ‘friends’ from school, about what happened the other […]

The Grapevine – November 16th, 2000

Today is up there with one of the worst days I’ve ever had at school. Firstly, last night my parents were awake until past midnight drinking with their friends. They are doing the same now. I woke up with an instant headache from being so tired. I don’t have ear plugs so had to sleep […]

The Virginity Contract – November 15th, 2000

I haven’t written for a few days. This is partly because I’ve just been sleeping. For the past 3 days all I’ve heard from Chels is all about what happened in the weekend. She’s always looking at me like she’s trying to figure me out, get to the root of my meaning. After a day […]

I Think I Got Away With It – November 13, 2000

Finally I’m back from school and I can finish what I was writing yesterday. After everyone found out about me and Shane, we went back and joined the party, without having to hide it from everyone. What was annoying though, was that everybody wanted to know EVERYTHING about EVERTYHING. When did it happen. Had we […]

Gearing Up – November 10th, 2000

I’m gearing myself up. I’ve decided I’m going out tonight. As soon as I got back from school I was straight in the shower. I had a half bath/half shower. If you’ve never had one of those, you should. I know the idea is gross but the actual feeling of it is well worth it. […]

Reflections and Second-Guessing – November 6th, 2000

I’ve done, seen and been a lot of things in the last while that I haven’t dared write in this little book for fear of someone reading it. But I’ve come a long way. I’m not saying that I will never go back to the way I was before, and I’m not saying that I’m […]

Killing Time With Lolita – November 4th, 2000

11:20pm Tonight was a horrible night. I’m grounded so I was on ICQ, when Jeff came online. It’s been a while since I’ve seen or spoken to Jeff.  He messaged me, and he was talking all weird. He said he came on to delete me from his ICQ list, and said “Forget ever knowing me”. […]

I Kissed a Girl at a Party – November 3rd, 2000

Yes, it’s true. I haven’t written in about a week. Is that such a crime? I’m sure you don’t feel that abandoned, book. Last weekend I went to a party at James’ house while his mum was in Samoa. It was the best party I’ve ever been to in my life. James ended up kissing […]

The Beauty of Hindsight – October 19th, 2000

It’s amazing how things change just like that. I haven’t written anything in here for almost 2 weeks… I’ve just had a lot of thinking to catch up on. The thing is, breaking up with George was no surprise, all along I could tell that we were truly not working out, but I loved him […]

The Break Up – October 8th, 2000

So… me and George broke up. It hurts, but not as much as I thought it would. He said that he just “doesn’t feel like going out with anyone at the moment”. The best part, get this, is that he broke up with me ON THE INTERNET. He couldn’t even say it to my face, […]